miss you again. motionless staring at the brick building; merely existing instead of living. the sun will blind my eyes forever until there is no end. dreaming on paper. crying in dreams. media consumption in order to fall in love. call the number tonight. tv screens. blinded by love. crossed the street too fast and i only feel regret. why did i go? why did i lose my mind why didnt i behave how my doctor asked me to, why cant i be fixed? i thought about funerals on the way to work. what a werid ritual. don't you think. do you ever think. are you in line? yes i am thank you thank you for asking thank you. it was in my bag the whole time. but i leave tomorrow and there is no time anymore. holding something that is liquid. impossibility. i watch you for a while and i'm inside your mind. do you think of me still?. had i never met you and your centuries i wouldnt be who i am now. i went back to safer roads and npw all i think is why did i do that. guess i didnt wanna be a loner. regret it but take me back i think my bike has been stolen and i can't get home. look both ways before you cross the street. do you still think of us ? it rains everyday here cant remember last time my face was under the sunrays

paper airplane shot straight to your heart. love note. i think about horses a lot these days and im not sure why. i wish i could just exist not do anything in particular. just exist... maybe stare into something but not even that. im scared of being loved and to tell you the truth, i think i dont really believe it when i recieve it. and i think about potential conversations but. but nothing.. ive been too scared in the past and everyone knows that. billboard of my heart. and we hardly see eachother and we rarely talk and i wonder if you still like me. do you still think of me? and now cut back a year and a month into the past back to the city you cannot forget. we walked after the museum visit and i remember feeling so sad. i had something so rare and was fully aware of it. 2004. even while it was happening i already missed it. do you recognize that feeling? i knew i was living something truly special something one day id miss and the day came sooner than any of us ever expected it.