tightening on my chest... i just miss you. miss all of you. parallax arcsecond. a basic sequence one knows since birth? 12345. cold laugh, water spilling out of your mouth. do you remember? asleep on the van, the one that took us to the vines. exchanging sunglasses for the day. the night i knew i had a new friend. the following morning confirmed it. i bought a lighter at the gift shop, the same one a month later you asked to borrow 2 light your cig at my apartment. i didn't know how to tell you no. amenable. i thought you were so cool... i still do, you know... and i really just wanted you around. dinner. let's go find a place the others will figure us out later, might as well use the time. star eyes. tightening them like our seatbelts. i'm sorry if i'm loud. scary house. let's go again cmon lets go again i'll pay. let's all go. picture taken. flashes not only of light but of memory. can we stay here forever... just a few more days please i promise i'll listen to anything you have to share. remorse and nostalgia in one. a pill for each day and don't forget. concept of existence.