i found a note today that said "call the number today . there might not be an answer... but you will get a message." but, there was no number attached... these days, i think about my childhood a lot... especially now that i'll be reliving it vicariously through the baby. but even with everything going on in my life, something keeps taking me back to that place... i have an urge to call someone i just don't know who. head hitting the pavement. what do to now? you got what you wanted... i think about my childhood. one that never took place with you. it never happened and yet we'll remember. call the number today. maybe if you're lucky they'll answer at night. it said something like that... anyway, a few weeks ago i was waiting for the train and in the station and i found an old movie ticket by the floor.something in me told me to take the ticket with me. it'd be a memory of this place, years from now i'll hold it with both of my hands and remember that i'm holding something that never belonged to me. it's a relic of an experience i was never part of. maybe i'll watch the respective movie over the holidays, if i can rent it somewhere. jen told me about this place downtown... i'll check it out when i'm back home. i miss my family.